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Bullseye!

July 11, 2018

I know you have all been waiting for an update.  Today was the day!  The appointment went as well as could be expected. Surgically everything looks good!  I have some scar tissue that is causing cording and tightening of the muscles under my arm and continue to decrease my range of motion.  However I have been inducted into the world of physical therapy (aka. peaceful tranquility) and I have to say so far it is working!  An hour long massage session on that arm in peace and quiet…who can complain?  Of course I’m sure it won’t always be that way…but they’re being nice to start! 🙂

As for the oncology meeting, Dr. Lawrence is wonderful.  He sat down and explained what he recommended and why.  He also explained why he didn’t recommend the other option at this time. At the end he discussed how most hospitals/doctors across the country are likely to offer a different opinion, and that if we needed a second opinion he fully supports it.  His honesty and candor is refreshing.

Okay okay, I know – what’s the plan?  We are going to start with Targeted therapy (bullseye…get it?) designed to attack the pathways/cells with BRAF mutation.  If you are interested, the drugs that are approved for my stage (Stage 3C) are a combination dabrafenib (Tafinlar®) and trametinib (Mekinist®).  Great names right?  No I cannot say them, but one is called MEK for short.

What does this mean??  Well, it means I will be taking pills at home twice a day for 1 year with some strict restrictions about exactly when and how they need to be taken.  Side effects could range from nothing at all (wouldn’t that be nice) to strong flu like symptoms including severe fevers & chills.  The doctor said most patients experience some side effects.  But you just don’t know when or why.  I could feel fine one day and miserable the next.  I could feel mild symptoms for a week, I could also go about my daily activities like nothing is happening.  Unfortunately we just won’t know how I will be impacted until we try.  The nurses & doctors will work with me to manage the symptoms as best we can and I’ll just continue to pray for the easiest road possible.

Though Dr. Lawrence said many other doctors would recommend doing immunotherapy such as nivolumab (Opdivo®), he feels as though the targeted therapy is a great chance to eradicate the cells and possibly cure me of this disease.  It’s possible I already am cured since they took out all of the suspicious nodes…but there is still a chance that the microscopic cells are floating around in me…and we want them dead!  The short term side effects may be more harsh with targeted therapy, but the potential for long term issues is less than it is with immunotherapy.  This course of treatment also allows us to keep immunotherapy in our ‘back pocket’ should the targeted therapy not work…but it’s gonna work!

So there you have it!  I’ll be putting a bullseye on any of those nasty cells left inside of me and praying this drug does it’s trick without much pain or fuss.  Next up is an echo cardiogram (heart check) so they have a baseline to make sure I’m staying healthy, scheduled for 7/27.  The drugs will be hand delivered to me by a specialty pharmacy – aren’t I so special!  Then on 7/30 I will head back to MGH and get instructions on exactly how/when to take them and who to call when I’m experiencing side effects.

On Sunday I turn 39.  Without a doubt this next year will be filled with many trials. But with a lot of faith, a little luck and tons of support I know that by the time I’m rolling into 40 I’ll be just about done with this mess.  So thank you in advance for all your love, prayers and patience this next year.  I never thought I’d be looking forward to 40…but I’ve heard people say ’40 never looked better’ – and I intend to make that the truest statement yet!

Now if you’ll excuse me…I’m off to KICK MELANOMA’S BUTT!

 

#PIMPINJOY shirt courtesy of my cousin Heather…I’m doing my best!  #PIMPINJOY is a movement, a celebration dedicated to people who may be going through a rough time…but they choose to find and spread joy in their daily lives.

 

 

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I’m a mutant!

June 29, 2018

Can you believe it?!  After some gentle prodding from my very curious husband, I called the doctor today to see if the pathology reports had come in.  I was willing to wait until July 11 because knowing the results now won’t change the conversation that day.  However, it is nice to know that I tested positive for the BRAF V600E gene mutation (hence the mutant title).

What is this language I speak?  Well, it basically means that I could be a candidate for targeted therapy as well as immunotherapy.  If I tested negative my only option was immunotherapy.  And while that may still be the choice…let’s be honest, a girl likes to have more that one option! Especially when the studies on targeted therapy have been very promising.

Other details of note from the report – they removed 22 nodes – did you know everyone has a different number of nodes in their body?  Well I had 22 in my armpit…just in case you were wondering!  4 of those were clearly showing melanoma. The rest looked clear, but they don’t perform extreme screening of them at that point because it doesn’t change the prognosis or therapy.  Additionally, my melanoma is cutaneous melanoma, which means that most likely it started somewhere on my skin and not in my mouth, eyes, or other membrane.  The fact that we can’t locate the primary source and that it’s cutaneous means there’s a very good chance my body fought off the original site.  So kudos to my immune system for that!

As for my daily life since surgery. I’ve been doing well!  I’ve managed with just tylenol and haven’t taken anything for the last 3 days.  I have a handy new way of carrying my drain bulb around so I can easily hide it under my shirt.  Who knew I would need my running belt in a time where I’m not allowed to run!  But it’s been awesome and allowed me to go to the pool with the kids, relax at Great Brook Farm while they caught frogs and even get to a church meeting!

None of this would have been possible without mom/grandma – she does the laundry, dishes and even has time to chauffeur us around! We’ve had meal deliveries from Andrew’s parents on the regular as well as from close friends who feel like family.  The kids have had more entertainment than they can handle in the last two weeks – I’m not sure they’ve missed me at all! 🙂  Andrew has been a rock and even attended MY family reunion without me…kids and all!  Feel free to pat him on the back next time you see him!

Oh – there was one more thing I forgot to mention from today’s phone call with the doctor…and it’s probably my favorite part! Tomorrow (for Eli’s 7th birthday) he said I could come in & have the drain REMOVED!  This was originally scheduled for July 5th, but after talking to him today and explaining my drainage he said I’m fine to have it out and offered to do it himself! Next time you see Dr. Haynes from MGH walking the streets of Boston feel free to give him a big hug!  While I have found a way to manage with the drain, I’ve still been nervous to drive, and let’s be real – no one WANTS a hose under their arm draining stuff out of their body (insert vomit reaction here).  So yeah, the sooner they can take it out the happier I will be!

There is still more to come.  Recovery of my body from the drain removal. Continued rest and positive thinking to further heal from surgery and of course stay strong for what’s to come.  Through it all though I feel good.  I’m strong, healthy and feel blessed by one of the fiercest gangs of faithful and thoughtful people a girl could ever imagine.  God is keeping an eye on me and I’m relieved to give him my struggles in return for peaceful night’s sleep.  We’ve got this thing…I’m not worried and neither should you!

Now please excuse me…this Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle is off to kick melanoma’s butt!  (I know I have Eli’s old mask around here somewhere ;))

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Rest & recovery

June 21, 2018

A successful surgery is all I could ask for, and my prayers were answered! Dr. Haynes reported that everything went very smoothly and he was happy with how everything looked. Hallelujah!

Going into the operating room I was met with a wonderful collection of nurses…one of which grew up in Chelmsford (of course) so I knew I was in good hands. I don’t remember much after that (thankfully), but I do remember trying to stand up as they were waking me up…ha! Don’t worry, I didn’t.

It was an easy transition to the recovery room and my mom and Andrew met me there. After a LONG day of listening to the beeps & buzzes of the recovery area though, it was time to go home. Well that & Andrew and my mom were getting pretty punchy after hours at the hospital without much to eat! 😂. Honestly though I was feeling good & strong and knew a good nights sleep at home was better than a night in the hospital.

The kids were excited to see me the next morning and have been super careful with me. I think they’ve been pretty good for all the helpful adults too! Thank you to everyone who has helped & offered to help! We are forever grateful.

So what now? We wait, I recover and we continue to pray that they got all of the bad cells. My recovery is going well. I have a drain in my armpit to let the fluids out. It had been a kink in it, but we removed the external bandage today & it’s doing its thing. I’m sore in the shoulder, but otherwise okay and so far have been managing with just Tylenol. I do tend to get tired very often & easily, but I have been able to sleep when I need thanks to all the help. My next appointment is not until Wed, July 11th. That meeting is my post op with the surgeon where they will check on the sutures and possibly remove the drain. I will also meet with the oncologist and get pathology results to learn more about what (if anything more) they found hiding in there.

For now though, I’m just recovering like any other surgery. It’s slower than I want of course, but I’m being careful not to push it. The strangest part is that my body seems to be so busy fixing my armpit, my brain is a bit foggy. It seems I really can only do one thing at a time I guess. I did however, manage a shower yesterday, sat and watched Maya’s championship softball game (did you know buttons down shirts are all the rage for the summer?) and even managed some Sullys ice cream (that was a tough one 😉). I’m blessed with lots of help and prayers. Thank you so much to everyone! The kids are done with school on Friday, so next week will bring all new challenges…but I know our village will help us get through and I look forward to the day we can pay it back!

Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to get back to kicking melanomas butt! ❤️

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4:30AM Wakeup call

June 18, 2018

Usually if I’m up at this hour it’s because someone needs me.  They’re sick or they had a bad dream.  Once upon a time it was for diaper changes and feedings.  Then there were those fun times when I had a flight to catch at some ridiculous hour that led to friends, family & fun.

Today’s call was different for sure.  As usual I was awake before the alarm (doesn’t that always happen when all you really want is that little extra sleep?).  I thought I would feel all the nerves…and there are definitely some.  But mostly, I just feel ready.  Ready to move on. Ready to get these terrorizing cells out of my body. Ready to be on the other side of this surgery.

I’ve got the best team of doctors…but an even more amazing team of support in all of you.  Though I would prefer not to have a reason to keep this blog, or hear all of the AMAZING messages from each of you, in a way I’m grateful for having the chance to express how much I appreciate each & every one of the people in my life.  This surgery may be small in the grand scheme of life and certainly what other’s have gone through before me, but it has opened my eyes to just how strong a circle of love and prayer can be.  So thank you…and please keep up the good work with those prayers.

We leave for MGH in T-4 minutes.  Andrew & my mom are my chauffeurs for the event and my personal team of tigers making sure I get nothing but the best.  So today, don’t worry about me, but if you would take some time this morning to imagine me healthy, whole and free of this disease – the visualization from all of you would be greatly appreciated.

My arrival time is 6am. We think I’ll be in surgery around 8, but we are on the doctors schedule so only time will tell. My tigers will post to Facebook and let you know when I go in. The procedure can take 1-2 hours, but for me it will be the blink of an eye…And I’m okay with that. I’ve had my Gatorade, I’m wearing my ‘Ohana means family’ stitch shirt, I have Holy water and a white cell -germ eating stuffed animal. I’m wrapped in my prayer shawl and I’m hoarding all of your thoughts and prayers!

The next time I’m here, I’ll be a teeny bit lighter in body…and a GREAT deal lighter in disease.  I’ll also be so full of love and prepared for a full recovery!

Lots of love to you all…now if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to kick melanomas butt!

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Kicking Melanoma’s Butt

June 16, 2018

So much has happened since I began this blog years ago.  Life has gotten busy – 3 kids, house, church, activities, etc.  You know the drill.  But just recently I was given a reason to get back to writing here, so I’m picking it back up…not where I left off and not starting again – just starting…and here’s why.

On June 1, 2018 I was given the news that a lump, I found under my armpit during a home self breast exam, tested positive for metastatic melanoma in my lymph nodes.  Don’t start googling – you won’t like what you see.  After the initial shock and a whole bunch of doctor appointments (everything from the dermatologist (x2) and optometrist to the oncologist) it has been determined that I have stage 3 melanoma with an unknown primary.

What does this mean?  It means that somewhere on my skin there was a point of origin, but at this moment we cannot find it.  It’s also possible my body’s immune system fought off the original site but the ‘bad cells’ still travelled to my lymph nodes and could start wreaking havoc.  So what’s the plan?

After a few MRI’s and a CT scan it appears that the melanoma is localized in that armpit. This is good news! Thankfully the spots they saw on my liver are benign hemangioma (for those that knew I was waiting for that test result to come back).  The course of action is to have a complete lymph node dissection (CLND) of the nodes in my left armpit…they’re gonna take them all out!  At that point they will test the tissue to see if I have the BRAF gene mutation and therefore could be a candidate for targeted adjuvant therapy.  If not, the other option is immunotherapy or some combination adjuvant therapy.  There is a third option of ‘wait & see’ – this means that we could just get all of the melanoma out during the surgery and I could be NED (no evidence of disease).  Only time will tell where we will go next.  But for now we are gearing up for surgery on 6/18/18.  I’m extremely hopeful about the prognosis, the therapies are improving and changing every day (literally). This is more good news!

Over the last two weeks I have been surrounded my more love, support and prayer than I ever could have imagined!  Family, friends, neighbors, church family, friends of family – it truly is incredible!  I am so grateful for all of the love and prayers that have been sent my way.  It honestly means the world and assures me that we can fight this thing!  I’m confident and you should be too!

Because I have so many amazing people in my life, updating text chains and emails has gotten daunting.  So this old blog of mine is my solution.  If you would like updates on how I’m doing or what’s going on – this is the place to come.  I’ll do my best to keep it updated…but if you’re ever at a loss or wondering how you can help – just send prayers!  They’ve been working and I have no problem hoarding them!

Also, if you know our kids – all they know is that mom is going to have surgery on Monday, and after her recovery she’ll be just fine.  And because it’s truth! 🙂  It’s important to us that they do not hear a lot of concerning conversations so if you could please just keep an eye out as you’re talking we would appreciate it…those little ears are always listening!

Well, now it’s time to put on your sunscreen, wear your hats, carry your parasol and still enjoy life!  The fashion blogs are sure to catch on to the parasol carrying right?

And if you’ll all excuse me, I’m off to kick melanoma’s butt!

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Shutterfly is the Best!

August 10, 2011
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Labor-free Day

September 8, 2010

This weekend we went…NO WHERE!  When most people are travelling about trying to fit in one last bit of summer, we just decided…enough!  3 straight weekends of major travel was all we could take.  Never mind the fact we were way behind in housework, we were way behind in just resting.  I think Maya forgot what it was like NOT to be in the car for 3 hours straight.  So much so that on Sunday we were outside playing, she stops all of a sudden – walks around to the car door and says, ‘buh-bye’.  I ask ‘Maya do you want to go bye-bye?’   Her response: ‘Yeah’ with a head nod.  HA!  We’ve created a monster!

Needless to say Maya is easily distracted, and after I got all ready to go just – somewhere – with her, she was off doing something else.  We did manage to take a few MUCH smaller trips of course – the grocery store, the park (Maya’s favorite) and Kimball’s (Mama’s favorite!).  The weather was perfect and it was just a great weekend to be in the ‘home’ area.  Nothing got DONE around the house obviously, other than a mow of the lawn…we were just too tired to deal.  But there’s always time for that, this weekend was just about hanging out & seeing family – oh…and attending a wedding. 

Saturday night we left Maya with Grandma & Grandpa Barry and got out – just the 2 of us, to go to a great backyard wedding.  I haven’t really seen Andrew spend lots of time with his friends from high school, and oh what a sight it was.  They’re a great bunch of guys who know how to party.  Needless to say there was lots of dancing – right up my alley!

We had a BBQ with the Barry’s on Monday and Maya got to play with her cousin Sam.  Sam is just 9 months older than Maya…but you would think they were the same age given Maya’s height.  Sam is way ahead in many areas compared to Maya though (listening being the biggest of those – he’s a good listener!).  I’m hoping this is something that will rub off on Maya.  It was so fun to see them together, in the ball pit, the sandbox, running up & down the hill.  We look forward to many more fun times with Sam.

All in all it was a great weekend – I wish we could say we were rejuvenated & refreshed…but we’re not, just not more exhausted than we were before the weekend!